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Friday, December 15, 2006

Just received news regarding the sp vs rp foosball challenge from wei sheng.
Oh yeah it's coming soon, maybe too soon. Been slacking for the whole of the week.
Just not in the right mood to play foosball. something is bothering me lately.
Of cause its you.. again.. u treated me so nicely, then left all of sudden and treated me so coldly. But nevermind, i know you're not in the mood either. Im already contented that i can make you smile and laugh. However sometimes you're jus not showing your trueself, u smile to hide your inner feelings.

Hmmm.. most probably taking part in the singles, open doubles and mixed doubles. Maybe forward shootout also. Main focus of cus will not be on forward shootout, if not so damn exhaustive.. kaos.. Partners - most probably peiru n kaibin. Got a feeling wont be winning, no we wont lose. we must win, and of cus we will WIN!

Seldom there are things i depend on you. You've made me so independent. Cus everytime i depend on you, nothing turned out right and ended up feeling fucked up. The only thing i rely and depend on you, is to win. I've put all my trust in you and there isnt anyone whom i trusted more. Only you and me has played forward in DYPs before. In terms of ball control, stability, passes, you're like the best candidate i can find. In terms of communication and character, u noe me best n i noe u best. I've put my heart in you, dun disappoint me. I cant guarantee win, but i will give in my best. I want it badly.
I've not been in a very good mood for so long, but thanks to you i train to vent it all out on RP. When you're in bad mood you can scold me whatsoever, but when im in bad mood i've no where else to turn to but foosball itself. I cant vent it on any of my friends, especially you, and me myself. All these days i trained and tried out so many things, went to so many DYPs other den my usual fishing and soccer routine, just to so wanna vent it out on foosball.
I've told you before i need you in foosball while you were having breaks from it. You made me relief by coming back to foos. Your birthday is nearing, cant find anything to make you happy whatsoever, maybe the best pressie you can give to me n i can give to you, is by winning.

Without you, there will not be anyone called Chengkai in foosball. After this competition, perhaps its time for me to give up? There is nothing to regret about. Be happy that some things just happen. Thinking of giving up reminds me of so many little things, may it be happy or sad.
I can still remember your cries and the songs u sang on phone, the times where i cried in front of you at your doorstep, the eye contacts we had, the choco and drinks you fed me, the scoldings u bloody gave me, the movies we watched, the basketball, truth or dare, pool games we played..
The times where i stayed at your cosy house, the times u taught me accounts at harbour front, the conversations we had at pool fusion, harbour front, ice skating rink etc.. the wrong smses u sent to me and made me diao~.. there are so much more still.. how i wish i can have moe conversations..
Not forgetting the foosball we played and made ryan n minghui crawl table. The fun and laughter etc etc.. These are treasure i'll keep inside me...
I know you haven been in a really good mood for the past half a yr or so, you made me feel really terrible; worst of my entire life. Bloody hell.. But thanks for all the care and concern you'd shown to me like the phonecalls to ask if im ok, the chair u pull for me when u see me standing, the heart to buy me choco. Damn surprised u bought me sth.. There are also times u show that you're worried that i'll leave.
You can still do something, do it before the RP games end.

*see-kay* watched the stars @ *10:44 pm*