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Wednesday, August 30, 2006

hAiz.. why? pr isnt feeling well recently,
and she wun be recovering any soon.. and agn the culprit is love.
after so long, 1sttalked to her during exam period.. ard 20/8 ba..
hav been talking to her these few days.. accompanying her..
cus after all saying out will make her feel abit better?
den 1st seen her ytd. im really on cloud nine..
really missed her lots. din see her for 5 weeks.. 1 1/4 mth.. thats long enuff to kill.
and really feel like hugging her when i saw her.. her smile brought back the smile back on my face. haven been smiling like tt for mths.
DELIGHTED of cus, after so long.. finally
tinking of ur smile now makes me wanna smile again
went pool club with her, played foosball like before..
ate lunch blah blah..
den continue playing for a while before we went to fetch kb from tanah merah..
on the way there.. i noe she's thinking abt the past agn, her mind is filled with everything and that her heart is aching. immediately my mood changed..
seeing her like that really hurts inside me.
i want her to be happy, yet there's absolutely nth i can do.
the only thing i can do in order nt to worsen it is to force myself to smile even when im hurting inside. and in order nt to burden her, i noe i must giv her up.
im forcing myself to do all these. its heartbreaking but becus of her i noe these r wad i shud do.
i had no choice. i'll try my very best and wadeva i can, even if i hav to giv u up, to bring back the smile back on ur face. cus wadeva ure being thru now, ive been thru it i understand hw it feels.
and i tried, its nt easy to smile when ure so sad right in front of me. theres nth i can do, i have to bear with it, and i hav to force myself to smile. but im determined to do so.

and feeling damn bad now.. went changi village to eat. she ordered so much yet i had no appetite.. i really feel like vomitting.. haiz..
den on the way home, shes thinking again..
its hurting inside her so much tt she had to say out hw she's feeling can!..
seeing it reallymakes me wannabe there to hug her tightly
another thing which makes me speechless, for whatever reason it can be.
my fren happen to like her now.. WTF? why mus u like her?? fucking faggot..
but now ure nt the main char, she is.. i need to make her feel better.. so u can f off now..


today, met her agn at JE after she see doc.. went pool meeting..
she doesnt seem as cheerful as ytd. in front of frens, shes acting n trying to be cheerful.
really xing ku ni lor..
why why why why why why!!!!
i jus wish you to be happy
my reason of happiness is when i see u happy

wo yao ni kuai le, wo yao ni shui de an wen..

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